Like this, it was meant to be like this: Atun, one of King Xau’s guards, accompanying king, queen, princeling on a state visit to Ritany, his bow ready but unneeded, the arrow of his life flown straight.
Not like this: their visit to Ritany coinciding with its worst flood in three hundred years; refugees struggling mile on mile to the ford, but the river fickle, furious, fast, too powerful to cross even at the ford, the Ritan army overmatched, King Xau and his guards trying to help.
How the world should be: as it was, eight years ago, when eighteen hundred wild horses followed the king from the hills of the horse country, and Atun, twelve years old, prostrated himself on the ground; the leader of the horse lords bowing so low to Xau his braid brushed the dirt; the greatest day of Atun’s life, though he did nothing but watch.
Not as it was at dawn: the Ritan commander eyeing Atun’s braid, Atun’s silver armbands as though Atun were a savage. The Ritan cavalry, Xau’s guards trying to persuade horses into the ford’s foaming fury. Failing.
Nor as it was at noon: supports shearing, splitting, splintering, the army’s attempt to build a wooden bridge over the river. Failed.
Perhaps this, the hour after dawn: sixty horses followed the king into the churning water; stood, stoic, one in front of another —a wall across the ford— people wading along that wall to safety.
And then, repeated all day into night: Xau leading spent horses from the river into Atun’s care (the horses exhausted, cold) while others tended the king (exhausted, cold) >before Xau led fresh horses into the river, staying with them, speaking to them. Over and over, six times over, and each time the king put his hand on Atun’s shoulder and thanked him, and Atun (weary, shivering, rain running down his braid, down his back) filled then with pride.
But not like this, it wasn’t meant to be like this: rain, wind, water, night when the king staggered out beside the torn horse. Only the stricken horse and the two of them then, all else shadows, torchlight, wind. Shadows that shouted that there were other horses, that the king must rest, that did not understand; what the horses had given must be honored. Atun inspected the horse’s leg, shook his head, offered his sword to the king. The shadows shouted, the king swayed on his feet, but Atun steadied him so Xau could raise the sword. The horse’s neck divided on the blade. Shadows. Water. Wind. Blood.